Lots of thoughts on my mind today.
So I am going to start with Wednesday, and let you know how my week has been..
On Wednesday Sister Allred and I went down to Enid to do exchanges, because Sister Allred is our Zone STL. As we split ways, the Elders texted our phone ( I had our phone, Sister Allred had theirs) They asked if they could call, and I said yes. I answered saying "This is Sister Webber, and Sister Chamberlain" and Elder Oberender in kind of a stern voice asked where Sister Allred was, I told him that we had split for the day, and he asked me to take the phone off of speaker,,,.. which was weird, but I did because of the way that he was acting. He said "The Blackwell Elders are in the city this morning, because one of the Elder's 17 year old brother died in a car accident last night." And my mind turned off. I just stared in shock at Sister Chamberlain. I couldn't think. I was overcome with emotion, and my heart hurt for Elder J. I couldn't imagine how he was feeling, or the thoughts going through his head.
When you leave on a mission you don't want anything to change, you don't want people to get married, little kids to grow, or families to go on vacation. because you don't want anything to change while you're gone. You don't want to come back to everyone and everything to be different. But In no way is anyone thinking that they would lose a loved one.
That night on our way home from Enid, the Elders called and we talked with them expressing how we wanted in some way to help Elder J, because he would be back the next morning to do exchanges with Elder Oberender. Through tears, the Elders prayed for direction in how we could best help him cope with such a traumatic thing. We shared our concerns and how we thought we could help.
The next morning we went to Blackwell to pick up Elder J, and I was in awe. He was smiling, and telling us all about his brother. He was talking about the accident, and what had happened. and assuring us. He told us about miracles that were happening at home that were bringing family members together after years of silence. He told us how the community had raised thousands of dollars overnight in a "go fund me" page. He shared miracle after miracle and we were all in awe of the spirit that was with him. Elder J is someone I hope to be like someday. To be able to take a horrible situation and see the positives that are happening.
I have been thinking a lot about my family. What I would do if this had happened to me. Would I be able to handle it? I don't know. But what I do know is that everything happens for a reason. Elder J's brother had finished all he needed to do here on this earth. I really believe that. I know that God is in the details, and that no matter what we do, we cannot mess up his plan. He knows what is going to happen before it does, and he prepares each of us for that. . God was preparing him. Heavenly Father does not leave one stone unturned when he prepared this plan, so why not do the same now.
I am so grateful for the knowledge I have that no matter what. I have been promised that I can be with my family forever. And it even says in Doctrine and Covenants 82:10 "I the Lord am bound if ye do what I say" He cannot break a promise. So KEEP YOUR PROMISES they are worth far more than gold.
Sorry this ended up being so long, but like I said, I had a lot on my mind today.
I know that this church is true. And for anyone reading this that isnt sure, pray about it. Ask God. Because he will lead you to where he needs you to be. Be willing to change, because change is repentance. That is all repentance is, changing to become more like Christ. Because this life is the time to prepare to meet God.
What are you doing to prepare?
I love you all so much. Thank you for your prayers and your support. All I ask is that you keep the J. Family in your prayers today as they hold the funeral of their son. Elder J went home yesterday morning, and will be back Tuesday afternoon. Pray that he travels safe.
The Blackwell elders had an investigator who passed away a few months ago, and they were devastated. but were reminded of the promise that we are still given the chance after this life to accept the gospel or not. And Sister Allred made the comment that Elder J's brother might get to finish teaching their investigator.
I know that this church is true, and I hope you can all too come to learn that for yourselves.
Have a wonderful week
Love Sister Webber