This week was another one for the books.. Literally. Haha We updated everything yesterday, and realized that we dont have any investigators. We had written the names of everyone we wanted to work with this week on a board, and most of them were people who are less active. Which we realized was totally fine.
I came on a mission to help others come closer to Christ, and I am realizing that numbers don't matter. Which took me a long time to realize. I am working on not letting what others think about me take over my life. Which is much harder than one may think. I have had a problem with that since I got into Jr High. I never wanted to be the one who stuck out. I had to look a certain way, and act a certain way, and that is exhausting after a while. Especially after so many years of trying to conform to everything, and everyone around me. Missionary work is helping me with a lot of my insecurities. I mean I have to talk to strangers all day, and when you are feeling sick all the time that is the last thing you want to do. We do it though, and we definitely have some interesting conversations. A lot of creepy old men hit on us, or older women tell us information that we do not need to hear... (makes me think of Noni every time though hahahah) Somehow I still love this work.
Something I have been studying this week is the life of Abinadi. He is an amazing missionary, and he knew his purpose. He doesn't back down when his life is threatened, which amazes me. I turn and run when someone looks at me weird, but he holds his ground because he understands the importance of his message. He understands that he was called of God to be a missionary to King Noah and his Priests, and he is not going to leave until he is finished sharing what he was commanded to. I love how he is not affraid to be bold with them though. I feel like that is the hardest part of missionary work, because I dont want to hurt anyone's feelings. Then I think about how Christ taught, and he didn't shy away from the truth. Neither did Alma, or Ammon, Abinadi, or Moroni, or Alma the Younger, or any of the sons of Mosiah. I want to be like them. I want to teach boldly and honestly and openly like they do. So that others can feel my love for the Savior through my testimony.
Sorry, I kinda just spew my thoughts out to yall. I hope you at least enjoyed it.. maybe learned something new? Hopefully you all can learn how to be better missionaries by reading the Book of Mormon. Some of the greatest Missionaries are within those pages.
I love you all. Have a wonderful week, and know that I love you to the moon and back.
Sister Webber